Are you Being Honest With Yourself?

What is it that you are NOT saying? Are you being honest with yourself, your partner and your own truth? What do you get by not admitting the truth to yourself?

Actually, you get a lot of pain, anger, and hurt, along with unresolved issues and even physical maladies. That unresolved stuff gets into your subconscious and then starts working it’s way into your body. This is called the “pain body.” Eckhart Tolle speaks a lot about this in his book, A New Earth. If you haven’t read it, get it today! It’s amazing how he describes all of this.

 By being honest and truthful with what you need and what you really want, you might find that you will have a lot more free time on your hands. You may even feel physically lighter and have more happiness in your life. How great does that sound?

 Oh my god, for so many years I stuffed my anger and silence in a place that hurt me physically. I used to pick at my face for hours. I would get out all of my anger on my face. I had to stop, because the skin doctor said to me, “Betsy, you are not telling me the truth about your skin!” I said, “What do you mean?” He replied, “You are picking your face and creating your own problems!”

 I got caught. He was right, I wasn’t telling the truth about what I was doing. “How do you know?” I asked him. “Well, I have been a dermatologist for 40 years and this is not the first time I have seen this! And I must tell you that if you don’t stop doing this to yourself, you are going to scar that pretty face of yours, and we don’t want that, right?”

 By not being truthful with myself I caused so much of my own pain and discomfort. I spent thousands of dollars on medication. I went on acutance 2 times and had so many injections. I remember one specific time when I was 21 years old, my doctor (Dr. Jim Baral)- may he rest in peace- gave me 20 cortisone injections in my face. It was so painful and I looked swollen and scary. I got the injections at 4pm and didn’t want to leave his office to face the world, so I made him stay that evening until past 10pm. He called my parents that night saying, “We have a very serious problem with your daughter.” The truth was out and I had to face it all. I am so grateful that I had a doctor who cared enough about me to call my parents and tell them how much pain and suffering I was in.

 I can honestly say that I went through 15 years of pain with my skin. I had so much inner turmoil that I needed to get help. It was hard for me to speak up about my fears, stuffing my inner pain and taking all of it out on my poor face. So…I worked on resolving my issues (which took many years of therapy and self-reflection) and now I can speak my truth. Not everyone likes it, however, it doesn’t matter because I feel so free with it all. It is a process and it takes thoughtful care and time. You must listen to your gut and tell yourself your own truth.

 I’m telling you this very personal story, because maybe there is something that is very deep-seated in you. Perhaps by hearing this, you can let it out and start your own healing process with whatever that may be. It has taken me a long time and I am still a work in progress, because picking at my face was more than skin deep. It was a way for me to get out my anger and hide my own truth. But now I have the courage to stand up for myself. To be the REAL me and tell my friends, business colleagues, men, and my family what I need and what feels right or wrong for me.

 I was always searching for the answers. I went to everyone, from astrologers, to Pranic healers, to Reiki masters, to gurus and friends. Now I just turn inward. I meditate and ask myself if I feel okay! I ask for the answers and my body tells me. I either feel light, indicating that I am in a good space, or I have a heavy heart (or heaviness somewhere else in my body) telling me there is an issue. The heaviness is a clear indication that something is off and that I need to look inward, asking for answers and my truth. If you are honest and listen to yourself, your body, mind and spirit will align, giving you what you need.

Find your own path and admit your own truth. Love is the only way. Admitting your truth and having self-respect will help you find all the answers you need. Be kind to yourself. Being completely honest and courageous will most probably open each and every door for you. Try speaking up and owning your truth. You could feel like you have a new lease on life. Don’t be frightened to fly alone. Spread your wings and soar like an eagle.

Written by: Betsy Karp 

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